Ever hear of progesterone? That is a hormone present during pregnancy. Now, a progesterone shot is given to expecting mothers if they have issues making it full term. Basically, more progesterone results in longer pregnancy. Not 100% effective since I went into preterm labor for 3 weeks between 29-31 weeks gestation with my rainbow baby. But I still received the shot after that and made it to 38 weeks.
Now with this baby, I am about 28/29 weeks pregnant. I have been to the hospital about 3 times already with contractions. I receive my progesterone shot every Thursday and I noticed, that night I tend to start cramping a lot, and the next day I usually end up in the hospital. This time, I have been cramping since Wednesday night, not too bad, but all Thursday they did not subside. My nurse gave me the shot and told me to keep watch on the cramps. Now this morning, I woke up with bad back pain, extremely tired, and still cramping. Well, around 2p.m., I went to eat Chinese food with my dad at a nearby restaurant. I was so hungry, but in the middle of eating, I started to cramp up and assumed I was just full. At that point I felt kind of off but thought nothing of it. I came home, laid down with some water and watched Will and Grace, my favorite show. All of a sudden, I started to get really harsh pains and I thought oh geez, diarrhea. I must have gone to the bathroom 9 times thinking it was diarrhea but nothing came out. Finally, the last 2 times, I started to get a bit faint. This pain was making me cry and that is a big deal. If you know me, any pain has to be quite severe to make me shed even just one tear. I called my dad since he lives a mile away and my husband works an hour away, and I told him I can’t handle this pain, I can’t even drive to the hospital which is 5 minutes away.
My dad picked me up. Worried of course but calming me down by saying I probably ate too much. He dropped me off since he was the only one available to be a babysitter for my kids. I walked slowly to the front desk, didn’t even utter a word when a massive contraction struck. I definitely started to cry and almost hit the ground from my legs giving out. I was taken to Labor and Delivery and connected to a monitor. Oh gosh. The contractions were intense and very close. My sister came to comfort me till my husband was near. I’m sure she was uncomfortable because she now never wants to have kids. I was in such a frantic stage that I told her we had to go home because I can’t do this right now and she looked at me with a “bitch please” expression and said how would going home make it any different from how it is now. She was right, obviously. At this point, they gave me an ambion sleeping pill since it can also calm the cervix, and they gave me a shot of turbuline, which is supposed to help stop contractions, makes you very jittery, and speeds up your heart rate. MY GOD. I wanted to rip my arm off. It was such an intense feeling of fire, that I could probably pin point which specific veins were being affected by it. I couldn’t lift my arm for awhile after. Neither one of those medications did anything for me. My sister left and my husband arrived.
Jon was worried of course. It really bothers him to see others in pain when he can’t do anything about it. Not to mention out of all the times we have been to the hospital, this time the pain was far intense. Well, the nurse came in to check if my cervix was dilated and it was not. So they sent me home. Since my contractions wouldn’t stop, they just told me to stay completely off my feet and if they get really intense and close together tonight, to go back right away. This is so stressful! I have been timing these contractions and ugh I just want them to stop. It feels like I pulled or ripped a muscle mixed with a severe case of diarrhea starting from your back and wrapping itself to the front. Seriously, this pain was so bad, I’m so sure this is going to be our very last baby. I can’t possibly go through with this, especially if this pain is just half of what I’ll actually be feeling during ACTIVE labor. I’m upset because I wanted to handle my labor without an epidural or spinal, but now with that pain, I don’t think I can handle it with just statol. My mind is just spinning. Baby’s weight is estimated to be 2lbs 7oz., which was last week and the 2 weeks before that, he was 1lb 12oz. So i’m hoping if baby is born, he’ll be 3 pound with strong lungs.
I just can’t help but to recall every thing I can possibly remember from Alexander’s labor and delivery. It was just so awful, traumatic, and shocking, that some of it I managed to block out and not remember. I just know the pain was just…no words to describe how bad it was. Now all these fears are flooding back to me and making me even more stressed. I should probably attempt a shower and head to bed.